Poll: What should I do? Please Answer!?

The sad thing is that when a guy has with girls they harley know, they are called a "Player". When a girl does the same thing, she is called a ho. I think you are trying to prove to yourself you are not one by stressing the fact that this was your first time doing this. Don't beat yourself up about it. You have learned something from this. You already know the answers, Because they are all right there in your questions. You did what you did because you were attracted to this guy. You enjoy the with him but you are feeling he doesn't respect you. But you know the answer to that too. Because of the double standards, No he doesn't respect you. You are trying to make this a "relationship". That is not what he wants. YOU DESERVE BETTER! Being female, You can have casual with just about any guy. But the hard way of doing things are usually the best way. Be strong! Break away from this situation. Wait until you find someone that cares about YOU. When you stop looking for real Love, it will come. Then you will respect yourself....Hope this helps, God Bless you!